a little rant

so, i just have to write this cause it's been floating around in my head and i don't think it will go away until i write it haha. and it's my blog ha!

i love pinterest don't get me wrong, and even though i find a lot of the things funny some are just rude, and i'm super surprised and who is pinning them... me to blame also. they are just so sarcastic.... and i HATE sarcasm... gives an excuse to be rude but give a little laugh and it's all good now.  who care's if people write a novel on their status? does if affect you? if it bothers you, delete them. has anybody considered that maybe that person doesn't have close friends to call, text ect. and that's really the only way they can talk or rant or just post about how bad a day they're having. sometimes people just need to hear "that really sucks, i'm sorry" or "hope you feel better soon" and i'm not saying i'm not to blame either cause i am. i often think "welcome to motherhood" or "do you want a gold star or a brownie" but what gives me the right to think like that and then be nice to their face when i see them! i don't even know if this makes sense haha.

my other rant is because i've heard it in the "grapevine"

i don't do things with my kids, birthday parties, holidays ect, for everybody to look and be like wow, she's amazing or she's just doing it to show off. REALLY? people think i wake up in the morning and say "what can i do with my kids so i can show the world how awesome i am" 

or that i do my birthday parties to "show off" ummm no! SURPRISE i don't! i LOVE LOVE LOVE birthdays! i always have, we just didn't have facebook or blogs back then so i don't have pictures of jaylene and ryder's earlier b-day's. i love showing my kids that i love that they are here, that they were born, that they have this 1 special day where it is all. about. them. 

i like doing things like little relief society stuff, back to school parties, fondue parties, crafts (ok sometimes, sometimes the mess overwhelms me haha) with karim working nights, i have a lot of free time by myself. gives me something to do. 

i add pictures to facebook because that's the only way that the 100's of Perez family members will probably ever see my kids, or karim or our family. they live in mexico.. how often do you think we'll get there? his grandma LOVES looking at our pictures so if i can add new ones for her to look at why wouldn't i? if my pictures bug you, feel free to delete me :) 

i am not a fantastic mom, i have tonnes of stuff that i could improve on (which i'm working on) my house is probably spotless clean once a week, and my laundry is probably never all folded. but i'm ok with that because of all the older people i've talked to, the biggest thing they would have changed is to let their kids mess up more. i don't want to chase after them and clean up after them, i want to be on the floor playing and making a mess with them. i don't want my kids to remember me chasing after them cleaning. my mom is the best for that, her house can be falling apart at the seams but will sit and read with you if you ask. the house can always be cleaned later... the kids however, will be gone before you know it.

 i yell to much, i'm too OCD and don't let me kids do things for themselves, i'm trying. i open my life up more than a lot of people i know, because maybe it will help someone. who knows! 

i miss people blogging real life stuff. 

i love instagram, but i miss real, nice, crisp picures

wow, i don't even know where i'm going here haha.

i love my life insecurities, frustrations, happiness and all!

thanks for stopping by..... and i hope i didn't offend anyone....it's really just my feelings.